Being a mom has completely changed my life. I adore my new role and absolutely LOVE my baby boy. But being a mom is hard work!! No one ever tells you how demanding parenting can be. I guess it's something everyone has to figure out on their own. Well today I really had a frustrating moment. Here I was doing laundry, cleaning, cooking dinner, taking care of a crying baby ...all at the same time. It was 5 pm and I had yet to take a shower or eat much all day. I felt overwhelmed, frustrated, tired, invisible. In a way, I feel like I've lost *my* identity and I desperately want to reclaim it!! It's hard to when a 8 month old baby is completely attached to me and dependent on me for its survival. You see, Preston will not take a bottle. Sure he'll drink out of a sippy cup but when it comes down to it, all he wants is his momma. Which translates into me not having any sort of life. I would love to be able to go out on a date with my husband, go to a movie or perhaps get a job!!
I know, I know, babies are only babies for a short while. Don't get me wrong, I'm relishing every second of Preston. He is my pride and joy. Like I said, I really enjoy being a mom. It's just that I need time of my own to get out of the house - even if it's only an hour at a time. I'm OK with that. I talked to Josh about it and we are going to work a schedule out so I can do that. OH how I would LOVE to get my sanity back!! Is that possible?!
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