Monday, June 27, 2011
I can't sleep. Here it is 1 am and I lay here while my knee has a constant throb. It's that annoying kind of pain, where the more you ignore it, the more it lashes out at you. I do too much - I've been trying to ignore the fact I have pain and just go on my days at 100 miles per hour. With two young children who are adventurous, how can I slow down? I feel like if I stop I'm letting them down. I want to go out and run through the sprinklers with them, play chase or go on long walks. Sadly, I can't right now but I try. I'm paying for it right now. Just want my life back.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Catch up time!
Been a heck of a long time since I posted anything on here. Seems like as the kids got older, the more time they squeezed out of me. Preston is now 5 years old and Myla Mae will be 4 in August!! Where in the heck did time go? As I was cuddling with Preston this morning, I cherished every second, as I knew my little boy would get to a point where cuddling with mom would be 'uncool' or when he moves away from home, I won't get those daily hugs from him. Same goes with Myla - I know they both will grow up before I know it. Just want time to slow down a tad.
This past year and a half have been the most challenging in our lives. On March 4, 2010, I tore my ACL skiing. Had my ACL surgery on June 14, 2010 and my adrenal system crashed 2 weeks later. I spent this time last year in the hospital. The 4th of July was spent in a hospital bed. Doctors do not know why my adrenal system crashed - calling me a medical mystery. I went to the Mayo Clinic this past May because my Human Growth Hormone has been very high. Radiologists found a 2-3 mm tumor on my pituitary gland - hence my high levels. So now its a sit and wait game. Next MRI brain scan in 6 months.
I had my 2nd knee surgery in February 2011. It was just a scope to clean up debris and see why I was still in so much pain. Well my pain never went away after that surgery and it only got worse. It's to the point of me crying in agonizing pain if I don't keep up with the pain meds. MRI showed that I had several holes in my left knee cartilage that are exposing to the bone and nerve endings. So overtime I walk, I rub these nerve endings - this pain then generates down my shin and femur bones. OUCH!
So surgery #3 is on July 18th. I am having whats called an osteochondral allograft knee surgery. Basically the surgeon is filling my holes with stem cells and putting a layer of glue on top. I will be in a full leg cast for 6 weeks and on crutches...yeah SO NOT FUN but neither is this pain. I can endure 6 weeks if it means never having pain in this knee again. seriously.
So as you can tell, my life has been in somewhat turned upside down with chronic pain. BUT I have not let this define my life. So many times folks have something happen to them like me and that is all they talk about - like they glorify on their injury. Yeah I want nothing more than this whole thing to go away!!! Still smiling and praising God for blessing me and my family's life. We have been SO blessed and I am very proud of where we are today.
More posts to come - I promise!
Love, Ryan
This past year and a half have been the most challenging in our lives. On March 4, 2010, I tore my ACL skiing. Had my ACL surgery on June 14, 2010 and my adrenal system crashed 2 weeks later. I spent this time last year in the hospital. The 4th of July was spent in a hospital bed. Doctors do not know why my adrenal system crashed - calling me a medical mystery. I went to the Mayo Clinic this past May because my Human Growth Hormone has been very high. Radiologists found a 2-3 mm tumor on my pituitary gland - hence my high levels. So now its a sit and wait game. Next MRI brain scan in 6 months.
I had my 2nd knee surgery in February 2011. It was just a scope to clean up debris and see why I was still in so much pain. Well my pain never went away after that surgery and it only got worse. It's to the point of me crying in agonizing pain if I don't keep up with the pain meds. MRI showed that I had several holes in my left knee cartilage that are exposing to the bone and nerve endings. So overtime I walk, I rub these nerve endings - this pain then generates down my shin and femur bones. OUCH!
So surgery #3 is on July 18th. I am having whats called an osteochondral allograft knee surgery. Basically the surgeon is filling my holes with stem cells and putting a layer of glue on top. I will be in a full leg cast for 6 weeks and on crutches...yeah SO NOT FUN but neither is this pain. I can endure 6 weeks if it means never having pain in this knee again. seriously.
So as you can tell, my life has been in somewhat turned upside down with chronic pain. BUT I have not let this define my life. So many times folks have something happen to them like me and that is all they talk about - like they glorify on their injury. Yeah I want nothing more than this whole thing to go away!!! Still smiling and praising God for blessing me and my family's life. We have been SO blessed and I am very proud of where we are today.
More posts to come - I promise!
Love, Ryan
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